Finding the Light
Over the past several years Christopher Loring Knowles' incredible blog, The Secret Sun, has become an integral and illuminating part of my daily life. I first found the blog fairly late into its history, in the winter of 2009, whilst searching YouTube for videos concerning the mythology of superheroes. I found an interview that Chris had done discussing his seminal book Our Gods Wear Spandex. Like a lightning bolt from the heavens, it was exactly what I was looking for. I ate it up, fascinated by Knowles' insights into the interconnections between mythology, psychology and superheroes - and pop-culture in general. I visited the blog occasionally, finding the posts to be particularly lucid and evocative. But I had a lot going on at the time and didn't really delve deeply into everything the blog had to offer until early in 2010. It was around that time that I realized that Chris Knowles was the author of The Complete X Files: Behind the Series, the Myths and the Movies, a book that I had recently purchased and treasured immediately. As a die-hard X-Files fanatic, this seemed like a sign for me to wake up and start paying serious attention to this author's work. So, having already bought and read Spandex I decided to delve head-first into all the content available on The Secret Sun. And so began a course of events that has changed my life in profound ways over the course of the last three years.
Sigil and Speak
Since I was a child I've had a deep interest in all fringe subjects; an almost all-consuming interest, you might say. I was fascinated by ufology, conspiracies, the occult, psychology, metaphysics and mysticism, as well as being a huge Sci-Fi and Horror fan. I suppose from a young age I was drawn to dark or mysterious subject matter, having a certain darkness and mystery occurring in my own private life. Ultimately, I was trying to understand myself and my own strange experiences. But despite having a somewhat Gothic artistic sensibility I was always conscious of never taking that side of myself too seriously. I tried to hold on to the fun and wonder and occasional silliness that I was also capable of. I realized that trying to balance the Light and Dark within my own personality was something that would be difficult but ultimately rewarding. I realized that Chris Knowles' blog was able to help me do this in a very immediate and satisfying way. Here was a writer who had very similar perspectives and viewpoints to myself, saying and writing things that spoke to me on a very deep level. Later I realized that Chris and I both had experience of a powerful dream-image of a Sun in the night sky - some strange portent of hidden meaning. I suddenly recalled that imagery concerning a strange sun and its secrets had been following me around my whole life, or conversely, I had been drawn to it my whole life.
A Star at Midnight
I remembered that I had written a short-story for my English class back in high school, entitled The Midnight Sun...the plot of which involved mysterious and sinister men in long dark coats who arrived when the sun appeared at night. These entities were able to stop time, and skulk about the city of London while this eerie Midnight Sun shone overhead. It was only due to Chris Knowles' work at The Secret Sun that I realized my short-story was a strange foreshadowing of the movie Dark City. I was amazed to realize that, despite loving that movie, I had never recognized the connection between my childhood story and the later film. Chris' work had jogged something lose in my mind and I was stunned by the connections I began to see. What was I to make of all this? I realized that I needed to boil it all down to its most fundamental essence. For some reason I was resonating on strange levels with this blog, a body of work that I considered to be on the cutting-edge of the alternative research field. The brave and warrior-like thing to do would be to try supporting this blog in any way I could. I felt like Christopher Knowles and I had both experienced the liminal light of an impossible night-time sun, and the secrets it implied. We were both almost literally amid night suns. And so, my own blog was born out of a respect and admiration for the work that Chris has done.
The Warrior's Way
I consider Amid Night Suns to be a brother to The Secret Sun. While my own blog and video content has a somewhat darker aesthetic, I have tried to refract the light of the Secret Sun through my own intellectual and spiritual prism. This is the best kind of support I can hope to give, not to simply re-frame somebody else's hard work, but to filter those thoughts, ideas and atmospheres through my own striving towards lucidity and insight. I hope I am at least occasionally successful in my attempts, because The Secret Sun has set the bar incredibly high in terms of exploring pop-culture and mythology for the pearls of Gnosis hidden within. And now that Christopher Loring Knowles is closing an important chapter in the history of The Secret Sun, I hope I can continue to tend and stoke the alchemical fires that he began. Ultimately my philosophy is very grounded and do-it-yourself, a philosophy that I believe Christopher Knowles shares: if you seek change, become the change. Don't expect others to leave a better world in your wake if you stand by and do nothing. If you meet friends who are fighting for values you believe in, then stand beside them and support them to the very end. I never imagined that a blog could have such a profound effect on my life, but The Secret Sun has evolved and empowered me as an individual and an artist, and for that I am eternally grateful.