Welcome back to Amid Night Suns, dear readers. The last few months have been especially challenging and chaotic for me personally. My private life has gone through very trying, frightening periods. When the health and well-being of the person you hold dearest is tested again and again it's easy to despair. But I’m always fighting tooth and nail to not give in to such despair. I go through moments, days or weeks when I fail in that fight. But I always attempt to dust myself off, reflect and then persevere with even greater conviction. I fail at this too sometimes. But failing is not the point. The point is that each new attempt at success – each new attempt at battling private demons – must be met with a more sophisticated and stronger plan of attack. It isn’t always easy to do, especially when you feel like you’re groping blindly in the dark. Those failures demand insight, brutal self-honesty and careful recalibration.
This is now.